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Wednesday, May 23rd, 2007
10:38 am	Ouch! Caroline was complaining my top lip was getting unslightly with hair so i shaved i now have a three line gash across my left of my top lip its stings stupid shaving creame stupid slippery razor and stupid me! On the plus side getting my hair cut at 12! Will post a picture later Current Music: 30 seconds to mars - The Story (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 9th, 2006
7:39 pm	Ok so the story is I went to the doctors again this morning they put me on anti-depressents woot and yay -_- i also had an appointment with alan heap about yesterdays window breakage. I'v been classed a danger to other students and there threatening to kick me out i have to write a grovelling letter tonight to "try" and get them to let me stay i also have to pay serverl hunderd for the window i broke.joys. i'm also having problems controling body temp today i feel freezeing inside but my skin is burning up and im having trouble standing aswell i have no energy. on a better note i got to see caroline for awhile which made things much better i worry about her i hope she's feeling ok *big hugs to caroline* Current Music: death cab for cutie - I will follow you into the dark (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 5th, 2006
3:01 pm	Mixing Ok so FYI mixing drinks is a bad idea i mixed Larger Cider(strongbow of course) White wine and Port That was a slightly silly idea to say the least tehe lets just say there was vomit before bed and a destinct feeling of unpleasntness when i woke up On the plus side wales wasnt to bad even thou i twisted my anckle climbing up a mountine but i still made it to the top so i was happy got some photos i'll put some of them up later Missed Caroline alot when i was gone but i got to talk to her on the phone which was very good she is my sunshine <3 Current Music: death cab for cutie - We looked like giants (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 31st, 2005
11:43 am	Well 2005 wasn't my best year thought it did have the best thing ever in it aswell as some of the worst but with endings come glourious new baginings. 2006 looks to be good espcially because i'll be with caroline right from the outset Happy new year everyone hope you have a good night and a god year to follow x Current Music: hawthorn heights - Niki FM(lolz most emo/scene song ever!) (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
7:39 pm	Sad Face (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
3:32 am	Kick in the teeth I really like fischerspooner again at the moment its like its dance music but yet still with the integrity and depressing edge of real music :O now there's something you don't see everyday(casioXcore) On a side not the first Conserv..ATORY party conference is being held tomorrow there will be booze and food applenty we shall eat and drink like the kings we are mwhahaha we're also going to write up a list of policies "Sawing, With my jaw tooth down. Guarded, Down upside frown. I‘m, I‘m looking for a pill, Something to ease my will, A kick in the teeth. You, You may not realize, When it‘s done or why, But it may be the best thing, it may be the best thing. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh and it may be the best thing. Pulsing, With a familiar pain. A comfort, From this disdain. Grind away. I‘m, I‘m looking for a thrill, Something to ease my will, You, You may not realize, When it‘s done or why, But it may be the best thing, it may be the best thing. Ohhhhhhhhhhhh and it may be the best thing." Current Music: fischerspooner - Everything to gain (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 12th, 2005
1:44 pm	You are a Social Moderate (56% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (28% permissive) You are best described as a: Democrat Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
10:03 am	Adventreing Days off college "4 Teh Win" Going to take caroline out Thou i shant revil where to in here coz she might read it and its ment to be a surprise lol not that theres many surpriseing in basingstoke but meh i say meh hope everyones doing ok cya's all later Current Music: Bright eyes - First day of my life (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
10:20 pm	My lord im extreamly cold and wet! turning down carolines offer of a lift maybe not my smartest move i do love that girl and incredabley large amount she completes me i have spliting headache thou from the cold rain me and caroline went to my dads for dinner today to introduce her to my father and sister i think all went well caroline made a great impression as i knew she would coz she is amazing :) i miss her already i know im a sappy git (Comment on this)
Monday, October 31st, 2005
7:15 pm	I LOVE THIS GIRL! "Remember the time you drove all night Just to meet me in the morning And I thought it was strange you said everything changed You felt as if you had just woke up And you said “this is the first day of my life I’m glad I didn’t die before I met you But now I don’t care I could go anywhere with you And I’d probably be happy" (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
10:19 am	'n so I cry sometimes when I'm lying in bed just to get it all out what's in my head 'n I, I'm feeling a little peculiar 'n so I wake in the morning and I step outside 'n I take a deep breath 'n I get real high 'n I scream from the top of my lungs what's goin' on Yesterday i felt weired. I couldnt stop thinking i was going to lose caroline not that she'd said or done anything i just had an insane amount of paranoia about certin things thanks to a certin someone else luckly i was with caroline and so a breakdown was averted as if she hadnt have been there there would be alot moe broken stuff in my room possabley includeing my knuckles. She is an incredable person i hope she realizes that! Current Music: Brand New - Faliure By Design (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 20th, 2005
9:36 pm	smitten Kitten When I was young It seemed that life was so wonderful A miracle Oh it was beautiful Magical And all the birds in the trees They made me sing so happily So joyfully Oh playfully watching me Current Mood: happy Current Music: Scooter - The Logical song (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
4:17 pm	You can have Washington I’ll take New Jersey You can have London but I want New York City I should get providence I’ve got a job now Los angels - obvious - that's where you belong now You can have Africa Asia Australia As long as you keep your hands off cafe Pamplona We can split Germany right down the middle You'd hate it there anyway Take Berlin and well call it even You can take all of the carry-on baggage I'll trade the siskin jokes for the alphabet language And if we find out that we have any children We'll trade them off summers and alternating weekends You call it over and I call you psycho Significant other? Just say we were lovers and we'll call it even We'll call it even I am the ground zero ex-friend you ordered Disguised as a hero to get past your borders I know when I’m wanted I’ll leave when you ask me to Mind my own business and speak when I’m spoken to I am the tower around which you orbited I am not proud I am just taking orders I fall to the ground within moments of impact I hit back if hit And attack if attacked You get route 2 between Concord and Lexington I want Mass Ave from the square to my apartment And if we should meet through some misunderstanding Ill be very sweet very patient and forgiving (now get off my side of the state) And if we should meet one another in passing Despite these techniques there is sometimes no avoiding (there must be some kind of mistake) We'll raise high our white flags and say hi and shake hands Declaring the land we're on unamerican We'll call it even I am the tower around which you orbited I am not proud I am just taking orders I fall to the ground within moments of impact I hit back if hit And attack if attacked I am an accident waiting to happen I'm laughing like mad while you strangle the captain My place may be taken, but make no mistake From a little black black box I can say without shame That you've lost Do you know what you've lost? So take whatever you'd like I'll strike like the states on fire You won't sleep very tight No hiding No safe covers Make your bed and now lie Just like you always do You can fake it for the papers but I’m on to you.... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
2:35 pm	There is no pain, you are receding. A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon. You are only coming through in waves. Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re sayin’. When I was a child I had a fever. My hands felt just like two balloons. Now I got that feeling once again. I can’t explain, you would not understand. This is not how I am. I have become comfortably numb. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 6th, 2005
11:36 pm	what the fuck am i doing with my life i just dont know where im going or what im doing! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:36 pm	Dresden dolls - Girl Anachronism you can tell from the scars on my arms and the stains on my skirt and the dents in my car and the things about to burst that i'm not the carefullest of girls you can tell from the glass on the floor and the strings that're breaking and i keep on breaking more and it looks like i am shaking but it's just the temperature but then again if it were any colder i could disengage if i were any older i could act my age but i dont think that youd believe me it's not the way i'm meant to be it's just the way the operation made me and you can tell from the state of my room that they let me out too soon and the pills that i ate came a couple years too late and i've got some issues to work through there i go again pretending to be you make-believing that i have a soul beneath the surface trying to convince you it was accidentally on purpose i am not so serious this passion is a plagerism i might join your century but only on a rare occasion i was taken out before the labor pains set in and now behold the world's worst accident i am the girl anachronism and you can tell from the red in my eyes and the bruises on my thighs and the knots in my hair and the bathtub full of flies that i'm not right now at all there i go again pretending that i'll fall don't call the doctors cause they've seen it all before they'll say just let her crash and burn she'll learn the attention just encourages her and you can tell from the full-body cast that i'm sorry that i asked though you did everything you could (like any decent person would) but i might be catching so don't touch you'll start believing youre immune to gravity and stuff don't get me wet because the bandages will all come off and you can tell from the smoke at the stake that the current state is critical well it is the little things, for instance: in the time it takes to break it she can make up ten excuses: please excuse her for the day, its just the way the medication makes her... i don't necessarily believe there is a cure for this so i might join your century but only as a doubtful guest i was too precarious removed as a caesarian behold the worlds worst accident I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM Current Music: dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 4th, 2005
12:23 pm	Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence Words like violence Break the silence Come crashing in Into my little world Painful to me Pierce right through me Can’t you understand Oh my little girl All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Vows are spoken To be broken Feelings are intense Words are trivial Pleasures remain So does the pain Words are meaningless And forgettable All I ever wanted All I ever needed Is here in my arms Words are very unnecessary They can only do harm Enjoy the silence Current Music: Depeche Mode - Enjoy the Silence (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
8:37 pm	Elliott Smith - Twilight Lyrics Haven't laughed this hard in a long time I better stop now before I start crying Go off to sleep in the sunshine I don't want to see the day when it's dying She's a sight to see, she's good to me I'm already somebody's baby She's a pretty thing and she knows everything But I'm already somebody's baby You don't deserve to be lonely But those drugs you got won't make you feel better Pretty soon you'll find it's the only Little part of your life you're keeping together I'm nice to you, I could make it through That you're already somebody's baby I could make you smile if you stayed a while But how long will you stay with me baby Because your candle burns too bright Well, I almost forgot it was twilight Even if I think that you are right Well, I'm tired of being down, I got no fight You're wonderful, when it's beautiful But I'm already somebody's baby And if I went with you I'd disappoint you too Well, I'm already somebody's baby Already somebody's baby Current Music: Elliott Smith - Twilight (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
9:52 pm	These white lights will bend to make blue Drive away Just get on the interstate And slip through this closing gate Pulled into this cheap hotel I called just to wish you well You said don't let love break you down Well just show me how And let me never be broken Tomorrow a new point of view These white lights will bend to make blue Now this can all look new to you Are you still living there Walking the streets with your hollow stare You say there's loneliness everywhere So we have nothing to loose The music plays all day long And sorrow looks beautiful And lovers seem mystical Tomorrow a new point of view These bright lights will bend to make blue Now this can all look new to you Current Music: jamiroquai - talulla (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 8th, 2005
9:33 pm	Your political compass Economic Left/Right: -2.00 Social Libertarian/Authoritarian: -1.95 Current Music: Azure ray (Comment on this)